It’s the end of November and I haven’t given you any sort of update since school has started. Let me fill you in on what’s been going on.
I am finally done with physics and I have been taking the engineering fundamental classes. So far, I’ve really enjoyed statics. My classes this quarter are pretty enjoyable. I feel like I have a better balance on things and I’m not doing homework or studying all the time, which has been relaxing. The hard part is that I’m still not doing super great, grade-wise, at least that’s what it feels like. I don’t think I’m close to failing any of my classes, but it’s frustrating to know the content super well, but to choke on test day. Overall, classes are more interesting, but my grades aren’t where I would like them to be.
Finals are during the second week of December so that’s the next major thing going on. The academic quarter hasn’t been too bad, just frustrating.
Everything at the house is going pretty well. People are getting well adjusted. The events have been going well. I think the officer team is doing a great job. It feels like every officer is in their right position, which is awesome. It feels like it’s going to be a good year. There’s not a lot more to say, so enjoy these fun pics:
To those who followed my journey last year, you know that all I would do is school, basically every single minute of every day. Wake-up & study, eat & study, “relax” & study, etc. It seemed like I was always doing school work. and I was. This quarter, I really made sure to make time to work out 5-6 days a week and that was much needed.
My day begins at 5:15. I’m at the gym by 5:30 and work out for 45 minutes. I run back, shower off, and get dressed. I take time to read my bible and spend my mornings in prayer. I don’t even begin to touch my schoolwork until after my 8:30 am class ends.
At the beginning, it was definitely hard to get adjusted to that. Especially when I used to spend my mornings studying and doing homework, but this has been such a better start to my day, physically, mentally & spiritually. I’ve really been enjoying it and I am really happy with this new habit and routine that I’m going to stick with. I feel a lot more refreshed and relaxed in the mornings and it’s been so great.
Here’s where the title of this post is going to make sense. Since mid-summer, or so, I decided to give up junk food and desserts. This blog is about me being honest and so although I’ve caved a couple times, for the most part I haven’t ate anything that falls under that category and starting this diet has been one of the best choices I’ve made, honestly.
It started out with me wanting to lose weight, but now it’s more tied to self-control and discipline. There’s something really powerful about being able to tell my body, “no”, no matter how delicious those freshly-baked brownies look. Since cutting out junk food, I’ve felt and I look a lot better. Before and when I first started, I had to physically remove myself from the room if I saw a batch of cookies, because it was too tempting. Now, I can be the one serving the cookies to people and I don’t even think about grabbing one. You could argue that I’m making this too big of a deal, but hey, this is really cool for me.
With that sort of self-control, all glory goes to God. Anyway, I am just really happy with that decision and I don’t have any plans on going back to junk food or desserts. I feel like that’s something you don’t hear from your average college kid, but here I am haha. There’s a bigger story with this whole diet thing, but there is a time and place for everything. Remember this story for future reference.
Like I mentioned, I’m really enjoying my routine and am glad to be able to connect with God daily.
The times my faith is tried is when I think about my future. The short version is I am applying to the mechanical engineering department at UW this upcoming spring and I am fearful. I have no idea if I’m going to get in. I know my grades are not the only thing when it comes to admission, but they are a big thing, and if I am unable to get significantly better grades compared to last year, well, I can’t get an engineering degree from UW.
If I can’t do engineering here, I’m leaving UW, that is what makes the most sense to me right now. That’s a really scary and sad thought, especially with the amazing people I’ve befriended here. Who knows, maybe in a year I’ll be in a completely different state. I don’t like thinking about it, but I know I shouldn’t just suppress those emotions.
When I think about my future and how God’s plan might not end up with what I want, I begin to doubt. My pride and arrogance wants God to follow my plan, but I know that my life is about following His plan. It’s about saying “thy will be done” whatever happens. It is hard though, really, really, really hard. I know no matter what, God’s got me, but I still have unbelief.
Other than that, it’s been great being able to lead a small group at UCU. I love how God is speaking to us through this study we are doing. Aside from that, I am so close to finishing the bible. I will have finally read the entire thing. I just have over a month left.
That, in short, is what has been going on, give or take. Of course I only talked about some things and decided to leave out others, but that gives you context as to how I’m doing. I just want to thank you all for your prayers. Thank you for your love. Thank you for your support. Thank you for sticking by my side and for taking the time out of your day to hear about what’s going on in my life. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
I’ll talk to you soon. Thank you for reading.
For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from Him.